Twisted All Around

Living with scoliosis and chronic back pain, it amazes me what people will say when they discover my twisted truth.  First let me say that I’m fortunate that doctors were able to steady my curve when I was young.  My curve is not very noticeable, especially when wearing clothes.  Even though you can't see it, it's still a 32 degree curve.  When I tell someone I have scoliosis , one comment that I always hear is “oh, you don’t look like you do.”  Another one is “I have a slight curve myself.”  This is when typically when my expression goes blank.  Hear me out, 10 out 9 times that person truly has a significant curve like myself and the rest I discover don’t after further discussion.  The one comment that stand out not only to me, but to others who have pain is “It’s can’t be too bad since you look so good and so active.”  Sadly, yes statements like this are made all the time.  I personally unde...

At the beginning of the year, I pulled out my measuring tape, stepped on the scale and started my log to keep track of my progress.  This is what majority of people do when they start or restart their fitness journey, so what’s the problem?  For me it becomes my obsession and when I don’t see the changes I want, everything goes negative.  My mind frame changes and I all the negative thought come flowing in.  When this happen its effects my eating habits, workouts and my self-esteem.  In my head all I think is “what’s the point, I’m never going to see change” or “I can’t do workouts like everyone else, I’m never going to reach my goals.”  Even though I know this happens to me every time, I still look at all the numbers. It’s a viscous cycle and I swear the scale was a product of the devil……………. seriously though how many people cringe when it’s time to step on the scale. I have decided to ignore the numbers, that’s right no measurements and no scale! ...