No More Numbers........

At the beginning of the year, I pulled out my measuring tape, stepped on the scale and started my log to keep track of my progress.  This is what majority of people do when they start or restart their fitness journey, so what’s the problem?  For me it becomes my obsession and when I don’t see the changes I want, everything goes negative.  My mind frame changes and I all the negative thought come flowing in.  When this happen its effects my eating habits, workouts and my self-esteem.  In my head all I think is “what’s the point, I’m never going to see change” or “I can’t do workouts like everyone else, I’m never going to reach my goals.”  Even though I know this happens to me every time, I still look at all the numbers. It’s a viscous cycle and I swear the scale was a product of the devil……………. seriously though how many people cringe when it’s time to step on the scale.

I have decided to ignore the numbers, that’s right no measurements and no scale!  I’ve said it out loud and it feels good. So, just how am I going to see what I am achieving with my fitness goals? Easy, I am focusing more on how a feel and watching how my clothes fit.  Here is another thing I am making a point to work on, self-love.  One thing that is for sure is when I see the numbers that I don’t want to see, I am definitely not loving myself.   Think about how easy is it to tell someone how beautiful they are when they are feeling down and criticize their looks………………. though how many of us actually say that to ourselves.  I’m beyond guilty of this.   It has been very hard for me to love my body the way it is, I look in the mirror some days and just see a crooked out of shape body.  Well I am done doing that, it is time show myself some self love.  I am who I am and this is how I was created.  I am ready to fully embrace myself and my flawed body.  Yes, I know realistically there will be times in my life where I will need to look at those “numbers” though the difference is I will not let those numbers bring me down anymore.