A Little Background......


I was told I had scoliosis in the 3rd grade and I will never forget my mom’s expression or sound in her voice when she got the phone call. No, it’s not life threating in the United States but it is life changing. Right away I was given a lift to wear in my shoe to even out my legs (which I still wear to this day). Then 2 years later I was put in a back brace to help keep my curve steady as a grew. I lived in that plastic thing until I was a junior in high school. Though as a child my back never stopped me from doing what I wanted to do………sports, cheered, danced…...I was just like any other kid, just curvy. I never looked at my spine as weak until recently. As most adults, I live in a world that my body is still like it was when I was 16. It’s not! I’m 37 and can relate to most seniors when it comes to back issues. I still have my curve, that will always be there, DDD (degenerate disc disease) bulging discs ……and more. This was all discovered 2 years ago when my normal pain was not normal anymore. Since then I have done physical therapy, medication, and shots. Every time I thought I was finally pain free it would flare up again. I was point blank told I would never be pain free. For the first time in my life, my back defeated me not only physically but mentally. My back became my crutch; it became an excuse for everything in my life. I started to see the effects of my pain in my kids and husband, this killed me!! One day I woke up and said enough, it's time to reclaim my life!!!


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