What's been going on.....


I have been MIA and I’m now getting myself back into the swing of things.  The past few months have been interesting in good and bad ways.  Between job changes, vacation and yes another back blow out, time had gotten away from me.  I was asked to take on more responsibilities at my job, this is a good thing.  I’ve been able to learn new duties and roles which I personally enjoy, though some days can also be draining.  This has taken more of my focus then I thought it would.  By the time I get home I’m ready to just relax with the family.  Lately there has been more relaxing than working out.
My twisted back, what is the status?  In June, a couple weeks before our family vacation, my back flared up to the point I couldn’t bend over.  It was never said, though I believe it was from me pushing myself on my workouts to tone up a bit more for vacation.  Per doctor’s orders, no working out for a few weeks. I was frustrated though looked at it as an early vacation.  Once I was back home from our trip, I was feeling great and free to workout.  It has been taking everything to get myself back in rhythm and I am still struggling.  I’m being so cautious about my back to the point if I feel any possible discomfort I won’t work out.  It’s effecting how I eat, how I feel, how I see myself and I was starting to travel down a dark rabbit hole.  It was my husband that brought it to my attention and that was when I realized it’s one big mental game. 
Realizing this and just how much our own mind can affect us is just plain mind boggling.  So many people struggle with this on so many different levels.  I know I’m not alone in this type of scenario, and just making a point to saying it out loud in some form does help.  Everyone had heard it and I’m repeating it, if you feel like you need to talk and get help do it.  Mental health is serious.  Let me stress that I understand there are people having serious mental health situations that they are dealing with, much more than me.  What I can tell you is that little bit that I have been experiencing is draining and not fun.  If anything, it gives me more sympathy and little more understanding of how easy someone can fall victim to their own mind.



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